Gimpin' ain't easy.

I’m SO confused. This is NOT good.

BAHAHAHAHAHA!

HA.

HA HA.

HA HA HA!

Trick.

Really! I’m always making rhymes in my head. I should probably start writing them down.

Lately it seems like it’d be easier to just drop everything and everyone and start over rather than strive to not be forgotten. Truth is, time is eventually going to do it’s thing. And, what is it that I am being remebered for? Dropping my friends. Letting them down. Not being a person of my word. Screwing over everyone who’s ever cared about me. I’m sorry. I’m selfish and wrong. I love you all. But I don’t think it can be fixed. I’m not looking for sympathy. God knows I deserve everything I’ve got coming to me. But I am sorry.

I never wanted to be forgotten.

But nothing can ever be the same.

So bring on the rain. I’m ready.

SO far past all of this childish bullcrap. WHO CARES what some BOY thinks of you? Really. He’s a boy. A high school boy. He only cares about his penis, and he’s proven that MANY times. There are WAYYY more fish in the sea. For real. And most of them probably look better anyway. So. Yeah. I’m pretty much tired of dumb boys, and the beautiful girls who get caught in all their CRAP!

*I do not understand the world or the people in it. I can’t wait to move to some place FAAAR away and start my own, peaceful, vibrant life. I’m tired of worrying about how I look or how much money I have. I’m tired of waking up everyday wondering if I’m going to do anything of worth. I’m tired of worrying if me and my mom are going to make it in a world that has, without question, lost it’s FREAKING mind. Yeah. Just tired of all the gimmics and games. 

If she catches me on Tumblr instead of doing my research paper..Lort.